I've now lived in London for over a year, except for the two months I was home this summer, and it is amazing to live my dream. I remember the first day I arrived, I was going to be an au pair for a family for 7 month and I was so excited. They gave me the best welcome you can wish for and made my move so much easier. I adapted quickly into my new routines and my new life, which was now in London. I had some amazing months with them, happy, angry, overwhelmed, relaxed and everything between. I learnt to take responsible for someone else, two boys which I miss a lot now in my empty silent flat haha.
I already new at the beginning of this time that I wanted to study Fashion Business, hell, I've known that I wanted to study fashion since I saw my first sex and the city movie, I can't even remember how old I was then? I know that I wanted to study fashion when I was in sixth grade, (we are 12 years old in sixth grade), so somewhere around that. My first plan was to go to New York to study, but then when I started to look at schools, I visited one in New York and one in London and the one in London litterally swept me away, I was hooked. So that's when I decided to go for London instead, (and also I knew my mom would be happier since it's closer to home).
When I finished my time as an au pair I went home for two months to work before school started. Then the first of october, me and the love of my life moved here together. I was so happy, living my dream, with my other half, but then a few months in he realized that this wasn't for him and moved back home. Which was tough in the beggining but I'm starting to handle it now, for everyday that passes it is easier.
So going form living with a family full of energy, to living with my other half, to now live alone. I must say that I was quite depressed in the beggining living alone, it is really lonely. But strong as I am, (haha), I've managed this. I am a way to stressful person who always need to plan my future and now what's coming, I have now realised that it is impossible to plan everything and that It's not going to turn out the way you want anyway, so it's better to just take it easy, have control over you life and take things as they come. So now I'm trying to relax, focus on my life now and be happy in the moment, don't think to much about my future because I can do that later. I'm trying not to stress over things that I cannot control anyway, and just live my life.
It is scary as f*ck to not have any safety net as you do home, I cannot go home to mom and dad when I feel sad, I cannot go to them If something happens with my apartment, I have to deal with everything by my self, every problem and every challenge. But this city bring me so much joy so I don't really care about all the other stuff, as long as I can life here and have a life that people back home can only dream of. The thought of that makes me very strong and makes me feel strong. It gives me strength to continue this jurney with my head high, not knowing what I will face in the future.
And then also of course waking up in London every morning is quite amazing, I shouldn't really complain should I?